It’s 2022!

Happy New Year, y’all! I hope everyone’s holiday celebrations were great and 2022 is treating y’all well so far! I fell off the face of the earth last quarter and let a lot of posts sit in my brain rather than put to web paper… sorry about that!

Siri Svay posing in front of decoration, holding balloons to celebrate the new year of 2022

For the last two weeks leading up to the new year, I was ill (thankfully not COVID-19 though!) and feeling miserable to the point where I was bed ridden for a few days. It’s a shame I couldn’t enjoy time off being well and healthy, but being alone for an extended period of time gets my mind racing about the things I wish I had done and accomplished, things I wish I hadn’t let fall to the wayside. Don’t get me wrong – I’m truly grateful for everything I have but something is just missing within me and I can never figure it out despite my efforts. And it’s a pattern where I start something strong and motivated but then it dissipates just as quickly and it’s hard to get back on the horse again. It’s an everyday effort to get myself to stay in a habit to be consistent – with anything honestly.

And that’s what I want 2022 to be about – re-establishing and maintaining consistent good, positive habits that serve me and only me. It’s not necessarily a resolution because those have a negative connotation of being short-lived, so it’s going to be a long-term commitment. In that commitment, I’m taking a step back, amidst the conveniently timed Omicron spike rates, to be alone. I did a lot of reflecting about the last year or two and how I haven’t been happy with myself. I was too busy running away from me and trying to be someone else, fit the mold and perform for others – friends, relationships and even family. I am myself to a certain extent but have always felt I had to be what everyone wanted of me and expected of me, so now I want to re-discover myself and become the person I want to be.

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I disabled my social media

I did it. I finally did it. After years of talking and having inner conversations with myself about it, I am getting rid of my personal social media.

Social media, in concept and its inception, was an innovative idea, but now it’s become a toxic wasteland. It’s morphed into this unhealthy black hole of doom scrolling and fun-house mirrors distorting the images, messages and your internal feelings.

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We’re at the Half – How are Things Going?

The year is halfway through… how in the world did we get here? Didn’t it just turn 2019? By this time, most people who made those New Year’s resolutions have given up and reverted back to their former ways. How are y’all doing with yours?

So much happened in the last six months I don’t know where to start… instead of writing a novel you guys probably don’t want to read, I’ll do a quick highlight reel and a snippet of what’s been on my mind lately.

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Welp, it’s 2019…

The first official week of 2019 has gone and passed real quick, and I have to say… it’s been amazing already. I can’t explain why for private and confidential reasons, but it all came as a surprise to me—and for that, I’m incredibly thankful for what’s happened thus far. It sets the tone for a great 2019 on the horizon, and I can’t wait to see what else the new year has to offer.

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Love at Airports

Holy my lanta – it’s been a hot minute since I’ve posted anything, and for that, there will be a formal “update” post with what I’ve been up to and what’s coming to my blogosphere. But for now… I wanted to share a profound observation and experience I had recently…

It was midday at the Portland airport as I killed time waiting for one of my best friends to arrive. I was reading a book at Starbucks, facing the exit doors toward baggage claim.

Periodically I heard shouts and screams of joy and looked up (SQUIRREL!) to see people embracing, hugging, kissing, smiling. It’s like that opening and closing scene from one of my favorite movies I watch annually—Love Actually.

Love Actually airport gif

Witnessing everyone reunite with loved ones in these random unfolding moments is to witness love in its primal form. That moment of a jolt of happiness and the warm feelings of being with the people you love—whether it’s family, friends or your significant other.

Sometimes we categorize “seeing love” in specific defined moments around holidays, anniversaries, birthdays or relationships, but take a backseat and people-watch at airports (okay, but don’t get creepy) and you’ll see pure love at its finest!

xoxo
Siri