Whoops! My brain goes a million miles an hour that it completely slipped my mind that my first published book, Saudade, turns three years old today.
Edit: It occurred to me I cannot math. I thought it was four years, but it’s been three since the book’s official publish date.
WOW. Three. Years. Old. It’s been that long already.
Saudade holds a special place in my heart. In essence, the book is about mental health – riding the scary and unpredictable rollercoaster of anxiety and depression. The truth behind the words was born from years and years of my experiences navigating through a dark place but eventually finding light in the end.
AHHHH! The moment I’ve been waiting for – my grand return to voice acting. Voice acting has been a big interest of mine for a long time. Growing up, I always wanted to entertain, however, I knew I would be a terrible actor so I chose my voice to be my vehicle – first singing and now voice acting. It’s utterly amazing to hear so many voice actors change their vocal tone, range, acting ability, and they truly inspire me to pursue down the path.
Anyway, one of the SIMs content creators I worked with back in college graciously offered me a role in his drama series, “Davenporte,” and today – episode 4 – my voice made it to the screen! See the video below:
I’m so incredibly thankful for the creator’s support and for giving me the opportunity to entertain again. And I’m thrilled to see in the comments, people are engaged with the show and don’t hate me – yet!
Make sure to follow the series on YouTube and catch up on all the drama 🙂
I did it. I finally did it. After years of talking and having inner conversations with myself about it, I am getting rid of my personal social media.
Social media, in concept and its inception, was an innovative idea, but now it’s become a toxic wasteland. It’s morphed into this unhealthy black hole of doom scrolling and fun-house mirrors distorting the images, messages and your internal feelings.
For those of you who care enough to read this personal post, I appreciate your time. It’s only been about two months since I returned to Twitch, and I had high hopes for it to be a great thing, but unfortunately it hasn’t. And with that said, err written, I’m hanging up my streaming hat (again). History has repeated itself where I’m constantly working around the clock from sunrise to dawn, and in result, am not getting ample sleep, which has led to exhaustion. For the past few weeks, I have been doing a lot of crying behind the scenes and putting on a facade on screen that I’m great. In that time, I’ve been thinking heavily on figuring out the best plan of action to move forward, and here we are.
This anxious, sad feeling has been eating at me since I decided to start streaming again, and I can’t hide it anymore. Where do I start? Two months seems like a short amount of time and doesn’t seem like a big deal, but there are larger, deep-rooted feelings at play here that made this decision both difficult and easy at the same time.
Mental Health Awareness Month is nearly over, and I’ve had productive time to ponder life, especially during the coronavirus (COVID-19) pandemic. Living in isolation in my apartment and social distancing from people have presented an opportunity for my true introvertedness to revive itself, and admittedly I’m glad it did. By indulging in my introverted tendencies, I’ve become more myself again versus wearing the mask and putting on an act in front of people – this is not me saying I’m fake, but it’s definitely a light switch when I have to interact and be extroverted. In reality, I get anxious and nervous at the thought of being around people.
Some of my goals in life is to enforce the importance of mental health and taking care of one’s health, as well as fighting the negative stigma associated with mental health. In the past, “taking a mental health day” was another ordinary slang phrase to me that I used loosely, but since my young adult life, it’s evolved into a bigger, more meaningful statement. My mental health is my number one priority, and I’m glad I was able to use this time alone to properly focus on it, like I have been promising myself for the past few years but never made ends meet.
What have I been doing to dedicate to myself? Here are a few things: