Love at Airports

September 22, 2018 sirisvayLeave a comment

Holy my lanta – it’s been a hot minute since I’ve posted anything, and for that, there will be a formal “update” post with what I’ve been up to and what’s coming to my blogosphere. But for now… I wanted to share a profound observation and experience I had recently…

It was midday at the Portland airport as I killed time waiting for one of my best friends to arrive. I was reading a book at Starbucks, facing the exit doors toward baggage claim.

Periodically I heard shouts and screams of joy and looked up (SQUIRREL!) to see people embracing, hugging, kissing, smiling. It’s like that opening and closing scene from one of my favorite movies I watch annually—Love Actually.

Witnessing everyone reunite with loved ones in these random unfolding moments is to witness love in its primal form. That moment of a jolt of happiness and the warm feelings of being with the people you love—whether it’s family, friends or your significant other.

Sometimes we categorize “seeing love” in specific defined moments around holidays, anniversaries, birthdays or relationships, but take a backseat and people-watch at airports (okay, but don’t get creepy) and you’ll see pure love at its finest!

xoxo
Siri

27

May 11, 2018May 11, 2018 sirisvayLeave a comment

It’s been a week since I turned 27, and since then, I’ve thought about my life and how it’s progressed, reviewing and reliving vivid things that constantly play in my head. I’m sure we all think about our life every day, but with three years to go ‘til the big 30, it hella puts my life into perspective. My ID may indicate that I am, indeed, 27, but I mentally feel like I’m still 22 – forever 22. Why? Because at this current moment, my life is not where I thought it would be. Things I thought I’d have accomplished by now are not fulfilled, and I’m still figuring myself out, trying to find out who I am.

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Challenge: 30-Day Workout and Diet Reset

February 28, 2018March 30, 2018 sirisvayLeave a comment

Five weeks. It has been five weeks since falling off my healthy wagon. Ever since I had the flu, and been knee deep in projects (which is a good thing), I have not gotten my butt back in the gym, and on top of that, I have been eating HORRIBLY. Bread, fast food and sugar galore! Everyone knows my undying love for Wendy’s, but good lawd, they gave me so many coupons that I went almost every week religiously, sometimes TWICE in a week. Then I gave up chocolate for lent, but I ended up making 50 sugar cookies and an entire tray of lemon bar squares, which got devoured within a couple days. Horrible.

Well… tomorrow is the start of March—holy my lanta, how did we get here so fast?!—and I am determined to climb back onboard the healthy wagon with a 30-DAY RESET CHALLENGE. Yes, I realize I’m thin and don’t need to “lose weight,” but as I’ve said many time again, this is not about losing weight. Workout and healthier eating habits help maintain discipline and create a better, healthier body for myself. Plus, no one wants to feel sluggish from the food they eat and/or beat themselves up from feeling eater’s remorse.

What regimens am I incorporating this time around? I’m not going too far fetched.

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Mental Health

Accomplishments

January 18, 2018March 30, 2018 sirisvayLeave a comment

My first book being published is right around the corner. My. First. Book. Published. Something that I created with my own two hands is going to be officially bound together and put out there for the world to see. Never in my life did I ever imagine publishing anything this way, let alone my poetry writing.

But you wanna know what’s sad?

As I held the first proof copy of my book, the first thought was, “Wow! I’m actually holding this in my hand right now!” And the instant next thought was,

“Man. This isn’t enough.”

Why that second thought popped into my head is beyond me. I know, I want, I need to feel happy, excited, jovial, to the moon, about this, but an itty bitty voice in my head pokes me and says,

“You’re still not good enough, Siri.”

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Mental Health

2018, a New Year

January 8, 2018March 30, 2018 sirisvayLeave a comment

Happy New Year, y’all! 2018 is finally here.

A week has passed since the beginning of a new year, but it didn’t truly feel new until today, this week. From January 1st – January 7th, it was almost like a reset and recharge week for me—I have been sick since before Christmas and I was finally starting to feel 110% better after New Year’s Day. At that, I snuck in all my vices—fast food, alcohol, carbs, you name it—before I officially went back to my strict diet and workout regimens.

As it is, I try to set daily/weekly/monthly goals for myself throughout the year, but that doesn’t exclude making the usual new year resolutions. Every day we change even if it’s the tiniest, most subtle thing. We are always progressing.

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